I was

looking out

the window

she was

looking at 

everything

I've believed

was a vitamin

deficiency 

The poets I’ve known

had time to write

I spent years 

wandering paranoid 

unable to eavesdrop

Here I am

59 years old

haven’t worked

for 30 years

more money

than I can spend

would gladly

fall gently

asleep tonight

knowing I

wouldn’t

wake up

experience is realizing

things are worse

than you've imagined 

not digging 

these people

who need

to dress

up for 

their beliefs

 

Funny thing is

you have to

keep blacking out

to wake up

and when you

don’t wake up

they throw a party