Here I am

59 years old

haven’t worked

for 30 years

more money

than I can spend

would gladly

fall gently

asleep tonight

knowing I

wouldn’t

wake up

experience is realizing

things are worse

than you've imagined 

not digging 

these people

who need

to dress

up for 

their beliefs

 

Funny thing is

you have to

keep blacking out

and waking up

and when you

don’t wake up

they throw a party

practice makes permanent

every night I fall asleep

every day I wake up

so I can fall asleep

we are a bag of chemicals

fighting to stay alive

some do bad others do good

only through the fear of pain 

do we persist we 

don’t matter the earth

is better without us

Most people live

to long for

their own good

The next day you’re dizzy

soon almost fainting

spend afternoons

in bed you’re tired