I had a cousin
blew his head off
it was easy
the swans are young again
I stop to watch them fumble
with themselves I myself
was never a baby there are no photos
only stories I don't believe
of how they had to wake me to eat
have kids to fill in the blanks
make them remember how it was
to imagine when they're lost
there’s an old lady down the hall
with a bowl of candy
consciousness is all I have
pain is exaggeration
pain is all I have
exaggeration is consciousness
exaggeration is all I have
consciousness is pain
all I have is
consciousness pain and exaggeration
beginnings in my life have no titles
my day has no subject no theme
and being the impersonation of 4 billion years of matter
I am not a man but men
either what I was or will become